boys suck and are stupid
ok ... time to look at the dating scene again so i'm braving online dating again. and who do i hear from? mostly ex's. what gives? especially the one that emailed me last week.
i was crazy about him. the chemistry was amazing. we had a lot in common ... and some good differences. we had fun together. and that CHEMISTRY ... wow. but he decided he didn't have time for me (aka, he just wasn't that in to me).
i was the stupid girl and pined for him for months (ok ... to some degree still am ... did i mention the chemistry???) and left him lots of opportunities to stop being a stupid boy. we emailed a few times over the summer. he claimed to still miss me ... but didn't have time to do anything about it. (STILL not that into me.)
i came to my senses (sort of) during my trip to italy. i came back and avoided contacting him again. the only logical thing to do because that chemistry thing was (is) still effecting me.
so i'm trying to move on with my life and find that chemistry with someone who is willing to make the time for me. i get into an IM conversation with a girlfriend about chemistry last week and she tells me i should try contacting him again. i go thru all of the reasons why i'm not going to - that it's up to him to step up this time but he wouldn't and that's that. then i get an email from him. WTF????
i'm sent reeling. tray brings me wine and a pint of ben & jerry's. tam helps me compose a reply. casual. leaving the ball in his court. he's not shut out, but he needs to step up and explain himself. he doesn't. i call him on it - what's with the email? if it's just chit-chat ... go away and leave me alone, i'm done with the game.
it's been almost a week and nothing from him. of course he's on my mind again 24/7 (it had been down to 12/7 ... i was making progress!). so ... why? why did he email me? last he knew i still wanted to see if the chemistry was still there in person. what was the point in initiating contact with me again? after 2 months? with our favorite holiday (halloween) coming up?
i was crazy about him. the chemistry was amazing. we had a lot in common ... and some good differences. we had fun together. and that CHEMISTRY ... wow. but he decided he didn't have time for me (aka, he just wasn't that in to me).
i was the stupid girl and pined for him for months (ok ... to some degree still am ... did i mention the chemistry???) and left him lots of opportunities to stop being a stupid boy. we emailed a few times over the summer. he claimed to still miss me ... but didn't have time to do anything about it. (STILL not that into me.)
i came to my senses (sort of) during my trip to italy. i came back and avoided contacting him again. the only logical thing to do because that chemistry thing was (is) still effecting me.
so i'm trying to move on with my life and find that chemistry with someone who is willing to make the time for me. i get into an IM conversation with a girlfriend about chemistry last week and she tells me i should try contacting him again. i go thru all of the reasons why i'm not going to - that it's up to him to step up this time but he wouldn't and that's that. then i get an email from him. WTF????
i'm sent reeling. tray brings me wine and a pint of ben & jerry's. tam helps me compose a reply. casual. leaving the ball in his court. he's not shut out, but he needs to step up and explain himself. he doesn't. i call him on it - what's with the email? if it's just chit-chat ... go away and leave me alone, i'm done with the game.
it's been almost a week and nothing from him. of course he's on my mind again 24/7 (it had been down to 12/7 ... i was making progress!). so ... why? why did he email me? last he knew i still wanted to see if the chemistry was still there in person. what was the point in initiating contact with me again? after 2 months? with our favorite holiday (halloween) coming up?
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