am i nuts?

So ... BC. Been lots of thoughts about him lately. A couple of weeks ago I noticed he was starting to get under my skin - in a good way, like KQ and JF - I was starting to look for him online and notice when I hadn't talked to him for a few days. Then I finished Maggie May's Diary and got caught by the line Brian uses to describe what he needs in a woman - someone who bowls him over. That was something I really liked about KQ and JF - in the 'they got under my skin' way. Then I'm talking to Anthony yesterday about exes. I bring up the 'exes are exes for a reason' line. He brings up 'but you can learn from them.' Which gets the big 'duh!' But it sounded different when he pointed it out yesterday and the dots between the good things about KQ and JF and how BC's been getting under my skin lately started connecting. He's been held at arms length as a friend because he's 4+ years younger, still living with his parents, still not established in his career. But he confident (although I like to tell him he's arrogant), knows what he wants, knows what he needs to do to get it or will figure it out, is willing to do what it takes to get it, and is generally positive (more like me and Tammy with the 'shit happens, get over it' attitude than Rich or those others who just want to compare and compete on tragic stories). He'll always be 4+ years younger, but he's definitely got plans in progress to change the other two issues I have. Things to ponder ...